Heather Alexander, 'In'shallah'

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In'shallah

I can't cleanse my soul
Of this battle-won and blood dried stain
For to cross this bridge I must pay its toll
With the price of pain
I must take what comes
And defy despair's dark evil wraith
For until I hear of my enemy's drums
I must keep my faith

Will it all be worth it?
Will it all mean more than just for me?
Will it come to form a more perfect pattern
Than the single line that I now weave?

I've known sacrifice
I have grown beyond my want and need
I have learned to live on what will suffice
And controlled my greed
Yet I suffer fear
And the dangerous path of truth I seek
I have spoken more than I wish to hear
And have found it weak

I must turn away
Though I've put in motion words and laws
For I find this price much too high to pay
For a useless cause
Yet my footsteps falter
And my body's held by hands above
And within I find a new strength to alter
For a greater love

I'm only just one man
(In'shallah)
But if Allah wills it
It will be

by Heather Alexander